I’m the kind of guy that you just want to hate… Those seem like strong words when taken out of context, but that was said of me when a friend of mine was introducing my wife to someone. I believe his description of me was something along the lines of, “He’s the kind of guy that you just want to hate because he knows how to do everything.”
I’m not one to flaunt my talents and skills, but there are a lot of things that just come easy or natural to me. I have been blessed with a number of gifts ranging from the deeply artistic to the highly analytical. While this may seem like something that anyone would hope for, I find it to be more of a burden in my current life season. While it’s great to have the ability to solve problems, design systems, create art, and develop abstract ideas, I find it hard to understand where I should put my focus.
I am good at a lot of things, but I don’t know that I would categorize any of those things as great. When looking at individuals and companies that go from Good to Great, it becomes obvious that a major factor is that they are intentional about being highly focused. One of the speakers that I had the privilege of hearing at the Global Leadership Summit has written books on this subject, and the first thing you see on his website sums it up quite well:
Greatness is not a function of circumstance. Greatness is largely a matter of conscious choice, and discipline.Jim Collins – Great By Choice
I have raw talent that allows me the ability to be good at things from leading worship to troubleshooting computers, creating stage designs to counseling students, building websites to creative writing, and designing graphics to building structures. I don’t want to just be good and do good things though. I want to be great at something and do great things for The Kingdom of God.
I feel like I could be great at any one of those things. Another Jim Collins concept is to understand what you can be best at rather than just aiming to be the best. I do not yet know what I can be the best at, and having a lot of options to pursue only makes finding what I can be best at more difficult.
If I were to rate my vocational options in order of preference, they would all be about the same. I know that I am still young and have plenty of time to figure this out, but I grow more impatient and anxious every time I think about it. What if the thing I can be best at is not something I want to do? What if I figure out what I really want to do and it turns out that I am only mediocre at best?
This is just one of the internal struggles that weighs me down. I’m nearly thirty and I still don’t know what I want to be when I grow up.*Image courtesy of GuruStump.com